A Totally Different View

It could be that restarting this blog is a mistake. That finding the time to write out my thoughts or posting them for public consumption makes no sense between the scroll-scroll-scrolling of the internet and being a stay-at-home mother.

But something is calling me to come back to writing, to sharing, to narrating and making sense of my life through storytelling, and then to listening, to visioning, and to supporting others in a way that feels innate and intuitive.

Almost a year ago (August 2018), we relocated to Ojai from Los Angeles for H to take a new job at a boarding school. This change allowed for an even larger shift in our family life - I quit my ten year career in higher education to stay at home with our daughter.

The year before that, I doubled-down on working full-time while navigating new motherhood, and was totally burning out. I was exhausted and felt like a pure failure, even as my baby thrived and work goals were achieved. Juggling both felt impossible.

Over the course of the past 5 years, my pregnancy loss and mothering journey took away my ability to speak my emotional truth and my writing disappeared. At a time when I needed that sensitive and creative outlet the most, I let it go, believing that I wasn't even worth the cost of notebook paper.

All of this to say that recently, I feel myself surfacing in some way, coming back to myself, and also learning who I am now, post-baby and post-career, living the stay-at-home mom life with a toddler on a boarding school campus in Ojai, CA.

My life is entirely different than it was even a year ago, and the views are even better than before. More to come, thanks for reading.