Thirty

I admit, I am quite apprehensive about this milestone birthday, but today has been a normal day off at home. In fact, I probably "wasted" it by sitting at the kitchen table, scrolling through blogs, Instagram and Twitter, sipping tea and reading The Goldfinch (which I still can't get enough of).But as my sister texted - it's not a waste if I'm happy.Amen to that.I also received many a Facebook posts, text messages, phone calls, IG comments and tweets. My awesome colleagues used Facetime to sing me happy birthday complete with inflatable instruments, and another had his entire office sing happy birthday to me over speaker phone. A few friends sent videos of well-wishes and H left me notes all over the apartment this morning.Tonight I'm headed out with 15 of my friends to all-you-can-eat-sushi and then a dive bar. Considering I haven't drank any alcohol in 3+ weeks, I don't plan on going out in a blaze of glory. It will be fun nonetheless.I'm grateful for this time alone - finally starting to feel my energy coming back, the sun moving into Pisces, and the internal wheels of project ideas and plans spinning once again. If anything, I am at least grateful to have better perspective this year after all of those events, and understanding my own cycles is helping immensely. By not fighting how I feel, it all seems to be flowing through me eventually.More to come, but for now, I'm off to the usual routine of taking the dog out for a walk. Birthday or not, some things still need tending to.