T Minus 54 Days

We're officially 54 days (or 7.7 weeks) away from our wedding. Eek.Some days, 7.7.12 can't come soon enough, and others, well, I wish it were 7.7.THIRTEEN or some other far off distant date. But we gotta go through with it at some point - I mean, we've been engaged for 2.6 years, together for 9.6 years and living together for almost 4 years. Those numbers add up. Plus, all of the deposits are in, and my dress is hanging in my closet (needing to be altered) and the invites are out so it's happening whether I like it or not.And it's scary. The cost, the logistics, the amount of people involved, all of the tasks to be completed... I've been joking that wedding planning is actually a huge coup to keep you from understanding completely that you're ENTERING INTO MARRIAGE. Like, forever commitment and "death do us part" and all that jazz.I don't have any wise words to impart on anyone about this. Just putting up a post b/c I have a commitment to myself to accomplish one small, daily task in regards to the following: blog, exercise, work project and wedding.If I can offer anything, it's that I am in love with this website and wish I'd found it 17 months ago. It's what I'll be combing through over the next two days as I draft my ceremony. Yes we're writing our own ceremony and you're welcome: A Practical Wedding.Last night, in the dark, H was holding me in what we affectionately call the "nurturing" position and he stroked my forehead and said, "Don't let all of this wedding stuff make you crazy. We're doing as low budget as we can, despite how expensive it is to us, and it'll all be fine".I know this. I know the day will be gorgeous and he'll be the handsomest and that we'll have some of the best people in the world in attendance, but it's a helluva big production to plan and execute.Best news though? T-54 days till the wedding means T-58 days until Hawaii :)