Seeking Equilibrium

Just survived 10 days of back-to-back parental visits. And I don't use the word survived lightly. It was a crazy combination of busyness, bad dreams at 3am, restaurant food, talking, alcohol, heat waves and general anxiety. I made it through better than I thought I would, considering, but not before suffering one of the worst bouts of indigestion of my life (full torso pain, nausea, and a 2hr nap).Needless to say, I am in need of extra quiet, rest and water. Planning on taking this week as slowly as possible, laying low and regrouping. Mercury Retrograde in Aries started with a bang last week, complete with an angry email from someone I hardly know, the dog escaping from his leash and out-of-left-field developments at my job.But I'm taking it all in stride.As I was writing my MPs the other day, I felt a huge sense of gratitude well up in my chest. I am so lucky I started the AW process to carry me through this tumultuous time. I am just beginning to trust myself and the universe again, and even though everything seems really up-in-the-air, I know I'm OK.With all of the visiting, I didn't have time for a "true" artist date, but I made sure to get some self-love in (not enough, but hey, you do what you can). I bought myself flowers - orangey red tulips, that opened up into baskets of vibrant silken color.Today, I hit the farmers market alone. Walked the length of it 4x. At first I felt anxiety and guilt, but as I walked, that sense of hope came back. The noise, the toddlers waddling around, the hustling didn't irk me at all. I felt rocked by the energy of all of these people living their lives and me, finally finding a quiet moment in the chaos.Red lettuce, bread, lemons and cauliflower filled my bag. Microwaved the cauliflower and ate it mashed with margarine. Filled my Nalgene up with lemon water. Off-set leftover pasta with lettuce, carrots and zucchini. Sipped herbal tea.I'm going to watch the country awards and get some sleep.Doing everything I can for equilibrium.